sun-sized twinkles.

    31 Mar 2012

    “i love my pony. i can’t believe you did that. how did you do it? … you know i named Golden the Pony Boy after you. … i improvised his name when you saw him for the first time. he didn’t have a name. now, tell me how you did it, Golden is galloping for real. it’s unreal.”
the science of sleep

    i love my pony. i can’t believe you did that. how did you do it? … you know i named Golden the Pony Boy after you. … i improvised his name when you saw him for the first time. he didn’t have a name. now, tell me how you did it, Golden is galloping for real. it’s unreal.”

    the science of sleep

    (Source: sarayamay)

    26 Mar 2012

    hold my head,
we’ll trampoline,
finally through the roof,
and on to somewhere near
and far in time,
Velouria.

    hold my head,

    we’ll trampoline,

    finally through the roof,

    and on to somewhere near

    and far in time,

    Velouria.

    15 Jan 2012

    thanks for sharing this, L. ♥

    Andrew read this to me a little while after we started dating. i remember it so vividly. i asked him to read me to sleep several times during that courtship phase of our relationship. he always complied. it still means the world to me.

    Milk with Toast, you are still the 100% Perfect Boy for me(, and i don’t want to test that the way the lovers do/did in this story).

    (Source: phoenix-eyes)

    28 Dec 2011

    definite album of the year (non-current year)

    www.youtube.com/watch?v=XCqjFxUMU6Q

    i ain’t gonna front. my definite album of the year is Best Coast’s Crazy for You [2010]. yeah, it’s the softest, girliest shit a gangsta like me could bump, but Besty Costello speaks from the heart and i fucking feel it. this album might as well be the biography of everything that has gone down in my heart and in my mind for the past entire year (shit, since November of last year), only i didn’t give her a chance until the very last week of the very last month of this previous year. the moment i heard “When I’m With You” in the middle of the night, it moved me to tears, and thus began my three month Best Coast pyscho spree. that CD did not leave my CD player from January until the day i left Denton in late March.

    i felt (and underwent) all of the stories Beth told on this album, from trying to give other guys a chance but disappointingly realising they were/are not the boy you love to wishing with all of your might that your cat could talk to you out of sheer loneliness and depression. the line that stuck with me the most in February of this year was,“and nothing makes me happy, not even TV or a bunch of weed.” it sounds simple (and juvenile), but dammit, it was the truth of my stupid, drugged out floundering existence, and i love(d) her so fiercely for being able to channel “me” so perfectly.

    things are considerably better from that point in time, so it hurts to listen to the album, because of all of the memories i had/have linked to her songs, but it doesn’t stop it from being good and honest, which we all know, are two characteristics i strongly value in everything.

    16 Dec 2011

    summer memory.

    i was lying in your arms, beyond content, just talking with you. i don’t remember what i said, but you kissed my forehead and softly, with the subtle tone of a happy cat who has gotten the cream, declared,”i adore you.”

    i looked up at you, grinning, slightly surprised, and answered,”really?”

    you looked down at me, gently nuzzling my face, and said,”yes, really. i would do anything for you.”

    naturally, i took this as some sort of challenge, so, i coyly asked you for the sun. you said “no,” to which i responded,”what? whyyy?” and you, oh, ever pragmatic love of my life, answered with concern in your voice,”because, it would burn you and then there would be no you for me to love.”

    i giggled and kissed your lips, undeterred, and proceeded to ask for the moon. once again, you said, “no.”

    “but, it’s the mooooon. i reeealllyyy want the moooon.”

    “but, if i gave you the moon it would cause tsunamis-“

    “and typhoons.”

    “exactly.”

    “so, you won’t give me the moon because it would disrupt the natural flow of things?”

    “it’s for the greater good.”

    “i still want the moon.”

    “i love you.”

    “i love you, too.”

    27 Nov 2011

    i have to be honest, and maybe you guys will hate me for this, but:
i (pretty much) hate the holiday season, but i love winter clothes.
i think only my closest friends know that, and now anyone who reads this will know this.
now that i think about it, though, Andrew is the exception- he brings out the Christmas in me, but he brings out every cheesy, sappy, over the top emotion that sometimes lie(s) dormant in me. i did/do/would/will gladly decorate(d) Christmas trees with him and happily sing/sang Christmas songs off-key, but those were things i had stopped doing before i met him.
my posts always veer off course.

    i have to be honest, and maybe you guys will hate me for this, but:

    i (pretty much) hate the holiday season, but i love winter clothes.

    i think only my closest friends know that, and now anyone who reads this will know this.

    now that i think about it, though, Andrew is the exception- he brings out the Christmas in me, but he brings out every cheesy, sappy, over the top emotion that sometimes lie(s) dormant in me. i did/do/would/will gladly decorate(d) Christmas trees with him and happily sing/sang Christmas songs off-key, but those were things i had stopped doing before i met him.

    my posts always veer off course.

    21 Nov 2011

    what i’ve been listening to these past few months (for @yanezinc and anyone else interested)

    my music “life” is not what it was when i was still in Denton. i have limited access to downloads and general internet access outside of my workplace. i was listening to new music on a daily basis back in college (equal parts thrilling and overwhelming), whereas here in Houston i’ve been focusing either on particular (sub)genres or artists.

    it’s not a bad thing, per se, it’s more or less the way i operated through most of my middle school and high school years- it makes for genre “expertise” or what have you, which can be seen as either a good or bad thing.

    my main fix of the past year and a half or so has been anything “hop,” sprinkled with any new releases from friends, favourite labels, and suggested artists. that hasn’t changed much, i suppose, as much as the source of my music has changed.

    i’ve been listening to a lot of underground and/or classic rap and hip hop on my phone through an internet radio station, but i’ve been taking a break from it for the past month because i jammed nothing but Beats Basement through ALL of September. up until late August, i also listened to a lot of clic-hop and glitch-hop on Soma.fm, i cannot recommend them enough- they need and deserve your support.

    also, i’ve somehow become saturated with the current hip hop scene, i’m more on top of it than i’ve ever been. thanks to cats like Kid Mero, Blockhead, Fat Tony, and Jeff Wiess (less frequently, but no less noteworthy), i know about the up and coming artists and releases, and i listen to the new mixtapes and singles from time to time, but it’s all harder for me to access (mediafire, megaupload, and most file sharing sites are blocked at work), so i’m sitting on the sidelines listening to people’s opinions on the matter…and i’m mostly okay with it. not as okay as i pretend, but it’s not something i can control.

                        that said, from the hip hop forefront, i recommend Shabazz Palaces, Homeboy Sandman, and Danny Brown. each one of these guys is pushing hip hop in different directions and i’m curious to see if anyone will decide to follow in their footsteps or if they will remain the exceptions to the current state of the scene. PLEASE CHECK OUT THE SONGS I LINKED, THEY ARE AMAZING.

                   from a more traditional/classic hip hop side, i have been loving Charizma (and Peanut Butter Wolf), Necro (HILARIOUS), Rasco, Hieroglyphics, and Freestlye Fellowship/Aceyalone for quite some time.

    if someone had told sophomore year of high school emma that she would love hip hop the way that she does now, she would have laughed at you and said something like “Southern Lord Forever” or some other metal/hardcore reference. i cannot not express how much i love hip hop. just…cannot. it sounds cheezy, but when it’s done well, it’s otherworldly. delivery and production are everything to me nowadays, and it still surprises me sometimes, but i wouldn’t have it any other way.

                      on a similar note, i spent most of the summer glued to Flea Market Funk and WeFunk . i say similar, because you’d be surprised by how many hip hop beats come from funk samples. i got really funky in August. hahaha.

    this past week, though, i’ve been listening to a lot of instrumental music on spotify. Air France, The Dead Texan, Dimlite (SICKEST JAZZ I’VE HEARD IN A LONG TIME, AND I WENT TO UNT), and Blue Sky Black Death. very different genres, but very much instrumental/background music.

    AND GONJASUFI (I ALMOST FORGOT). you have to have zero expectations when you first listen to Gonjasufi, or else you will be disappointed. he gets bundled with the hip hop crowd, but he also gets thrown in with the hippie crowd and the modern psych crowd, but you have to listen to him without expecting ANY of that, trust me. he is a lot of fun (random tangent, i know).

    anyway, that’s kind of how it’s been for me lately, a lot of Shugo Tokumaru and Blockhead on CD, mixed in with whatever i can get a hold of. it’s different. it gets old sometimes, but it’s not bad…it’s life, i guess.

    this essay took a bunch of weird turns, much like the musical interests in my life. ya’ll should be set on musical suggestions for a while. haha. :)

    17 Oct 2011

    Andrew got me flowers.
speechless.
i got my birthday wish. ♥
they’re so lovely.
i’m gonna leave them in the vase for today and tomorrow and then dry ‘em out on Wednesday so i can have them for ever. :)
happiest birthday girl. :3

    Andrew got me flowers.

    speechless.

    i got my birthday wish. ♥

    they’re so lovely.

    i’m gonna leave them in the vase for today and tomorrow and then dry ‘em out on Wednesday so i can have them for ever. :)

    happiest birthday girl. :3

    26 Sep 2011

    lil babbiez circa 1994.

    lil babbiez circa 1994.

    26 Sep 2011

    almost eighteen years ago and i look exactly the same.
and that’s my sister Diana next to me. :3

    almost eighteen years ago and i look exactly the same.

    and that’s my sister Diana next to me. :3

    11 Sep 2011

    jillbutnojack:

    For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can’t get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and so deep you never want to come up for air.

    11 Sep 2011

    [Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]

    “i was awash with you

    and it grew into

    a  lasting love affair.”

    - “Awash” - The Long Lost

    finally getting around to posting the actual song. :3

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